A little world of mine...

Last Saturday my Bro-in-law came for a visit. Chatting and discussing various matters, funny, secret some grown up stuff, other general matters...he suddenly asked me why do i not believe in God or believe in it. I was thoroughly perplexed by this sudden approach....i took some time to shuffle through the same old response that i d have given anyone else. But i decided not to dish out any lie this time nor do i want to be prick. For a moment or two i kept mum. I asked myself why don't i believe in god???Or religion??? the answer was quite astounding ...i always thought that i didn't believe in God cos i didn't want to. I realized I from the very core of my heart have started to despise God. I told him its not that i dont believe in God. I was a born to Hindu parents.

But i don't want to die a Hindu or a Muslim or a Christian or Hebrew...or any other religious blasphemer as a matter of fact. I want to die as a HUMAN BEING. I used to worship our family deity all the way up to my teenage years. But then i changed drastically. I know ...hell I believe if we all....every single man woman and child gave up there religion today...rite here rite now....this world d be the best place to live....it d be heaven on earth.

skeletons in my closet.....

There are times when i just close my eyes and slip into a transient zone of emptiness. It feels really good to shake off all connections to this world around. I keep thinking about who i am, what i can become, what i could have become or what i cant become. I guess this happens to everyone. But then eventually when i open my eyes back again i see the same old world i thought i ve been sulking from and i chuckle to myself. Why does it feel so comfortable to just close my eyes and feel no one can see me? Isnt it really amazing how we always end up playing a fool in the hands of life.

The darkness in my heart....

I had heard about blogging from my friends. But had never tried it out. This is my first time blogging. I dont exactly know how to feel or what to feel...i am prety excited and nervous at the same time...well i hope to pick up the trick of blogging soon enough until then am jus gonna sit back relax and write my heart out......my dark corrupt heart!


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